Silent words

Today  when we spoke, you repeatedly asked me what more is going on. I was thinking for some time, and once in that time I was stunned to silence. I didn’t know what to say. I was being forced to say something; I understood the obligation as it was a phone call. But I felt trapped, I didn’t understand why we had to go through this, I wondered if he didn’t understand this need to mine. 

And I realized I was being such a pusher, how could he? How could I even expect?!  I felt I was being hasted... I cut the conversation short.

I sat on the railway platform waiting for my train, I was exhausted. Today I wanted you to just be there, not say a thing, not even expect a word out of me, but just be there, in silence.

I wanted that comforting silence, the hassle free conversation without words or any significant effort.

 Sometime later when I reached my destination and was walking home, I realised I couldn’t communicate properly what I wanted and that is the sole reason of my unhappiness today.