A dark memory!

I walk around the academy in my own thoughts..... This is so strange as there have been very rare instances like these... today i feel bad, someone is there in my thoughts, and i have no idea why am i thinking of that person? Today I remember, just six months ago when I was seventeen, he changed my life.

My vacations had started, it was early may and I was happy and gay for I could do many more things than just studying. It was when I was surfing the net when I stumbled upon it, upon the person who would come like storm and destroy my life. Little did I know that the person whom I was falling for wore a mask, an artificial one and hid his real self from me. He was good to me and made me fall for him, ‘because he knew I was naive and innocent. Today my eyes well up with tears as I think of him, “God it’s been almost more than six months but I just can’t forget him, why I have no clue but he did something. Either I was deeply in love with him or I just liked him too much, but the thing is I still can’t forget him. He is there in my thoughts, in my dreams, in my mind and my heart. He has forgotten me, I was never important in his life, I was just a toy to play with, he loved someone else.”I silently said to myself.

Now it was getting dark.The naked trees basked in snow had taken a frosty look, strong winds blowing on my face, and snow circling in and around me... the strong roar and the cold wind froze me, I lost the senses of my legs and face muscles, my hands were numb. But my brain still in the same thoughts. I’ll never be able to get on with life, if ever I do that trace which I want to get rid of will always remain. I slowly realise what I did to myself? I destroyed my own self, oh my holy god, I lost myself. I walked and I walked, struggling and slipping in the accumulated snow. I crossed dangerously on the centre street; the horn saved my life...

At the age of seventeen I had a bad experience, oh I know it sounds shallow but that’s how I would express it, bad and nightmarish! The first guy I fell in love with, or so I thought I fell in love with, god whatever it was, loved someone else, he came to me for a definite purpose, a selfish one! I don’t know why he did that, the thing is he hurt me and he gave me a very bad taste of love. So bad that maybe in future I may be scared of falling again for anyone. His words have an eco, they keep on going in my mind again and again, his sweet voice, his way of talking, and his body language, and oh I just can’t get off. I was irritated with myself.

My purpose of a walk was to get to forget that lad, but I am getting more and more close to him... he doesn’t even care a bit. He never got his love, but he destroyed mine too L and he thinks he loves, oh he says, “Shallow love is the one, who says my love is deep.” In fact I would say you made me hate this feeling called “love” and at the age of seventeen... 

As I walked across the goom mall in the centre of the city there was this sweet song of Yanni playing “To the one who knows”... again reminded me of him..

She attempted to cross the lane, did not notice it was red signal for the walkers, and a speeding BMW knocked her right there hard. As she fell and hit her head hard, her brain was a jumble of people, one she could see was the one who hated her, who broke her heart. All the events were playing past her mind, and at that time she knew that she could never forget that one person ever... and she simply closed her eyes, and the doors of heaven opened for her. 

-Scribbled by TNN

P.S: Guys I am thankful to you all for making this year so beautiful for me.. Enjoy the last day of this year.. Happy New Year!!