Solitude

As I stand near the door of the balcony, watching snow accumulated on the trees, big trucks  removing heaps of snow from the roads, mild cold wind blowing on my face, touching my senses gently, I am drifted into a world of my own. I co-exist with this world but there's another one inside me.

The naked trees, the impression of the moon in the dark blue sky remind me how alone I am. The trees I have been watching since so long are the only ones to remain. People will come and go from my life. Some will stay forever some will leave me forever. Whatever the changes happen to be, I'll be alone here standing watching my life, being screwed, played around with, hurt deeply, still taking in those tears strongly.

I have been blank since a few days, I have become closed. I am acting difficult, then feeling guilty about it, but something is wrong, I can’t see myself like this. A strong girl that I was, now I am no more the same. This world is giving me a hard time, there’s distance between every celestial body, there are a few tears, a whole lot of worries, a nagging mind and no one with me.

I remind myself so often, girl this is your life, people don't stay forever, on every walk of life you meet new, you part with the old ones, you keep going forward. No matter how bad I feel, I know 'am going to be lonely, I was born alone to die alone one day. Nothing can be done, how much ever someone loves me, life is going to be such. You know never know when and how your world tumbles down, in a matter of seconds your paradise vanishes without a sign of existence.

I'll live with my love forever, like the winds, moon, stars and the whole nature co-exist. People will come, tear me apart and leave me alone to bear all of it. I'll be standing here, lonely, lost, looking at those same old trees, snow accumulated at the same places and cry silently.

 I hope someone will be there for me all through it.

Note: This is my 101th post and I have no idea either to be happy or whatever........... Just mentioned :)