Don't wake me up!

Ummm.. I don't want to be shaken up again, not atleast now. Things are so rosy, its dream like, I am on the top of the world. All things new, remains only me as a oldie.

The reason I again feel like this is unswered and I don’t wish to find it, infact I don’t care about it. I just want to be left alone, to love, to enjoy, to live my life just like an house fly.

Sometimes I don’t want to face the truth, though the creative mind is good, and young, a bit of childishness always remains. I don’t want to and can’t make it go away. I just wanna say leave me be, the way I am. Its better to keep on dreaming rather than facing the unbearable truth, the one I may detest, the one I can’t stand..... it makes me feel bitter!

But the same people who love me remind me of that. My mood detoriates easily, and unknowingly, confusing me and making me ask, why me???

I love you. don’t I ? why should I then tell you so? Is it necessary? I want to be in the background, not in the spotlight! I am very much good being alone, and keeping to myself. These pangs of wanting a blissful solitude is washed down my mind by the inexplicable knowledge of speaking tree, the ancient one which bores the fruits of humanity and wisdom.

I don’t want to see the bitter realities of life, I just want to see the happiness reflect in one’s eyes..... can’t that happen?

“Isn’t it weird how feeling insignificant and possessing minuscule selfesteem

doesn’t stop a person also developing a sense of victimisation the size

of a city block or allowing their paranoia to grow beyond all limits?”

Truth behind some things haunt me, and the intention of people inside them pricks me.

Just please do me a favor, I know one day I have to face this world full of questions, when I have to see bitter realities of life, but atleast till then let me be sleep this blissful sleep of dream. Wherein everything is just perfect, I know what everyone must be thinking. But believe me once somewhere in some point of life you too must have felt the same, just let me be!

Don’t wake me up, please!